This morning I was thinking of sharing “yesterday” with you guys.  Many of you have probably heard it already.  I recorded this demo when I lived in Wisconsin and worked at the drop zone there (Skydive Midwest).  Some of you know that time well.  It was 2012.  I had written quite a few songs when i was in Kuwait, and I recorded a record on my Iphone called The Seasons while living in my trailer.  The record was a demo record, meaning I was getting the direction down… think of it as brainstorming a record, song arrangements, instrumental accompaniment, order of songs, whether or not it will be an Ep or and Lp, that sort of thing.  The main tempo was enhanced a little by a Cajon (drum box) I had in the trailer and i put a few acoustic leads in it to sort of move it along a bit more. Literally, I recorded everything on the phone and mixed it the best i could at the time using the speakers in my car.  To this day I still don’t know quite how to produce this song, but I like it, and especially like the groove.  I think a strong bass line is whats missing, but thats missing in a lot of my recordings, but song wise, I remember where I was when I wrote it…

I was working night shift at AL Mubarak Air Base and we were all sitting around lunchtime (probably 2am) in one of the smoking pits rappin about this and that, when a guy started to get a little heated.  Then he got more heated at the conversation we here having and started to get very mean and disrespectful.  Once he crossed that line he went straight into cursing, at me especially, in front of everyone, they were pretty much fighting words. I was starting to get a little pissed myself now, I mean cursing and cursing at someone are different, and calling someone out in front of others is even more different… it pisses you off more, and unfortunately I do have a bit of a temper.  I think we all do, i’m slow to anger, but I do get there.  Anyway, I was trying hard to control it, probably should’ve just unleashed it haha, but self control got the better of me.  I know you know what I mean, we are only human.  I guess I just don’t understand why the conversation, even disagreement, gets personal.  Just because we disagree doesn’t mean your automatically an enemy.  Anyway, I chilled out, took a walk, the shift ended and I went straight home and picked up the same ol beat up small body classical guitar that i was writing on out there (i think it was even missing a string)… and wrote this song.  That was in 2009,  but again this shoddy recording is from 2012.

I feel like it is important to write about how things affect us when we know people are listening in.  This is what is happening on social media.  When someone calls us out, we are called out in front of everyone and this is a big part of why we are affected the way we are.  If it was just a conversation between you and that person things would be radically different, but because there is “public disgrace” things get heated much more quickly, even Jesus speaks to this in the gospel.  Thats why in this song I say “angry verbs that we left on stage.”  The stage changes everything.  Please take this to heart and be aware that public disgrace is real.  We don’t like feeling rejected on the public platform and it embitters us to respond in ways we normally would not.  Can you see the power of that phenomenon?  Nothing has changed in the argument, but because it is public, everything changes.  This song Yesterday, is all about that and then some.  “Tempers flare in others more, justice is what we temper for, and temper is what starts the war, so what if justice was peace and love?  what if mercy ran our desire for blood, but if its okay ill keep my guard up, how can we fight the outcome?”  Please hear this Ryders.  Sometimes its better to say nothing and leave the conversation based solely on the fact that things are out of hand merely because you are on a public stage.  We have to understand the power of a stage because “stages” are now literally everywhere.

Ive included an acoustic demo of it as well in the email to the Ryders which is designed so that the lyrics are heard better, and it even has an interesting bridge in it.  I don’t think this song needs a bridge but I’m playing with one anyway.  If your not a Ryder go ahead and hop on!  Id love to have you plus you get every song I write about, including this one,  AND my last EP all for free.  All you have to do is give me your email here and join the ryde!

the lyrics:

FORGIVE ME IF I DONT GET UPSET, BUT YOU AND I DONT SEE THE SAME THINGS, THIS IS WHERE I WILL SEPARATE IT, TELL ME IF I WAS SO OUT OF LINE DID YOU HEAR ANYTHING AT ALL?

YES BUT YOU AINT SEEING IT MY WAY, AND MAYBE JUST A LITTLE BIT OF CHILDSPLAY, BUT THERE IS SOMETHING THAT I DONT LIKE IN YOU

AND I REMEMBER LIKE YESTERDAY, I REMEMBER THE GAMES YOU PLAY, AND I REMEMBER THE WORDS YOU SAY, AND NO THEY’RE NO JOKE,  I REMEMBER LIKE YESTERDAY, I REMEMBER THE THROWAWAY OF ANGRY VERBS WE LEFT ON STAGE, AND NO THEY’RE NO JOKE…. BUT THEY ARE ONLY WORDS… NAH NAH NAH NAH NAH…..

SETTLE IT WITH ALL YOUR ADVERSARIES, SPIES ARE NEEDED FOR THE LESSONS TO BE LEARNED, EVERYTHING GROWS AT ITS OWN PACE AND EVERYONE RUNS THEIR OWN RACE.  SETTLE IT WITH ALL YOUR ADVERSARIES, TEMPERS FLARE IN OTHERS MORE, JUSTICE IS WHAT WE TEMPER FOR AND TEMPER IS WHAT STARTS THE WAR.  SO WHAT IF JUSTICE WAS PEACE AND LOVE?  WHAT IS MERCY RAN OUR DESIRE FOR BLOOD?  WELL IF ITS OKAY ILL KEEP MY GUARD UP, HOW CAN WE FIGHT THE OUTCOME?

WHEN I REMEMBER LIKE YESTERDAY!